A Starting Point

01/11/2011

 
Seems only fair that I would give you some sort of introduction to me if you are going to take the time to read this. I am 32 for a few more months and refuse to accept that I am getting older. I am attempting to make time go backwards by working out like crazy, thank you Jillian Michaels, and taking better care of myself than I have in years. I don't want to be perfect as I know that won't happen, but I want to feel strong and steady.
In the past year I have been in and out of a number of situations with different men in my life. I divorced my husband. That was a very good and necessary decision. Truth be told, we probably never should have been married in the first place. Despite being together since 1996, we were always better off as friends and are finally back to being friends after a long stretch of disappointment, loss, and anger.
Since the demise of my marriage, it has been an interesting time of making peace with myself and my beliefs to date while I was still techinically married (divorce takes forever in this state), enter the world of online dating, and overcoming my fear of being naked with someone new for the first time in a decade. Luckily for me, I was able to conquer the apprehension of each of those things and open myself up for what life has in store for me. It wasn't always easy, or pretty for that matter, but necessary and in some cases, very rewarding in more than one way!